fai_dust: law & order: 15x13 - Ain't No Love (Default)
So, my head's a sieve. If I need to do something, I'd better damn well do it when I am told / remember about it because if I don't, it is not going to happen. Being on stupid pills mixed with no-sleep levels of manic and stress from dealing with random bitch attacks from my sister... well, I'm sure you get my point.
Along with this, I apologise to the >90% of my journal f-list who's not on DW as well as LJ; the site was being a jerk to me again, so I couldn't use it past cross-posting through DW. Hell, half the time, my computer couldn't see that even exsisted.

The gist of this? If I owe you something, you need me to do something, or anything else, please don't be afraid to tell me point-blank on here. I can semi-work LJ again and will be trying to catch up with you all.
Thank you for your understanding if you have even a little; I am fully aware of what a special case I've been the last while and I am going to do my damndest to improve.

edit: (aprox. 2h later) I've finally changed my LJ layout, which I've been meaning to do for at least 6 months, but probably needed doing for a lot longer then that. If it's too girly, juvinile or offends you visually in any other way, please feel free to tell me. I fully admit I do not have the best judgement right now.
fai_dust: law & order: 15x13 - Ain't No Love (Default)
So, apparentally, being 23 is looking to be a good age. Even though I'm at the second worst point in my life health-wise, it feels like the universe is looking to help make up for it.

so many awesome things are happening right now )

PS; please help me with this if you haven't already!
fai_dust: Blue Bloods: 1x11 - Little Fish (|.crime drama.|)
Over the last few weeks, I've spent a lot of time watching various Law & Order episodes; season 20 (recorded myself when they were airing new), season 16/17 at 5pm on Bravo, and old tapes of anything from S1 to (I think) S15, which I got from my grade 11 English teacher. So excuse the L&O (TOS) spam, k?
...and can I just say how cool it is to watch the older episodes without having any of it cut for more add time? There are scenes I'm getting to see that I'm pretty sure have been hacked because older shows had more show to them. Also, I don't mind watching the adds that are there because even they are kind of entertaining, seeing the differences between the styles now and 15-20 years ago. Hell, even five years ago.
NOTE; some episode spoilers

many various thoughts and points in no order other than that which I watched in )
fai_dust: marvel comics: X-23; Target X - issue #06 (.blank)
***** these were written at various times over the last few weeks when I thought them but was too fried to post. I apologise if there are any typos; each and every one was all but unreadable when I actually typed them, but I did run it through spell-check on MS Word, so I hope I got the majority of the mess. *****

sad fact just editing and cleaning this up took... too long. I opened the page at "22:43" and finished at "23:55". Jeeze.

 - I really dislike wiki sites. It took me this side of forever to not hate them immediately because of the potential unreliability of them (I don't care what anyone says about how a wrong answer can be corrected as quickly as under a minute; I know of four incidents involving people I know personally and in 'real life' [as opposed to on-line] where it was the wrong information that kept getting 'corrected'), bitching because I can't figure out the damn rules + gushing over ComicVine )

 - Sometimes, words are awesome but right now, I despise my vocabulary. Unless I know someone really well**, I can come off as either harsh, pissed off or attacking when I don't mean too. Apparently, saying that 'x' template email was used to justify the deletion of a submission is being rude, but that's the most descriptive word I can come up with. "Explain" doesn't fit because the email didn't explain anything.
  **or they happen to have an X-Files reference as their username not be angered because they say the same things with the intent of being a (funny) pain in the ass being harsh.
added in editing/just before posted (this isn't something that needs to be said on a general post, but I'm going to anyways) I am more than a little amused by this note and it's sub-point because I had a conversation on this very subject last night with her.


 - You know how sometimes when you watch a show that you haven't seen in a long time and when you watch it again, you wonder how you didn't see how truly **awful** it is? Well, I caught myself thinking the reverse when I was watching Star Trek; Voyager a while back. I always remember it as being poorly acted in the beginning, not all that good with continuity, having created Seven for gratuities sexuality and just really hokey. I attribute watching it to it being _Star Trek_. But when I actually watch it, it's not nearly as bad as I always think of it.

 - ( http://questionablecontent.net/view.php?comic=91) I cannot comprehend a situation where paying for alcohol is equivalent to covering pizza except maybe in the case of a children's BD party and the parents of birthday child drinking after.

 - spent a full day dicking around on the Blue Bloods Wikia site. A very long no-point detail list of what specifically I did and justifications for everything can be found here; http://bluebloodstv.wikia.com/wiki/User_blog:Pixie_child/self-absorbed_mind_drop

 - I have found a new way to be horrified and very amused at the same time; http://wonkette.com/. shifting blame + recs found at 2AM )

 - Wow, I'm getting a little political lately. I know it is just through quoting one of the awesome-ness of one of the coolest "Old Guys" on TV, but still. They're directly currently politically-related, so it feels pretty damn close. And while I'm pretty sure no one on my f-list** is a [what's the US equivalent of Canada's Conservative party? I can't keep the two names separate because unlike up here in the land of "Universal" health care, neither words are (as far as I know) words in the English language], but just in case, I apologise. I don't want to offend anyone. Well, not unless you would vote the illiterate media whore, ah, "companion". Then I am not going to say anything in your regard, because I'm a firm believer in the rights of everyone, but you really challenge that.
  **reading this and not a member of my f-list? Seriously? Well, after questioning your sanity (^_^), I invite you to contact me either through commenting, PM-ing via LJ or DW, or emailing me! If I haven't scared you off yet, I'm almost guaranteed to be more than willing to babble incoherently with you.

 - suddenly overwhelmed by 14-year-old guilt from back when I spent two weeks with my aunt and uncle. an instance where I was reminded how everything is a reflection on my father )

 - I'm easily amused. Apparently, Jeri Ryan's birth last name is Zimmerman. cue Star Trek-related giggles
    - also just learned that she turned down a cameo offer to be in (Star Trek) Nemesis, and only asked Kate Mulgrew after. I have nothing against Jeri Ryan, but seriously? Janeway made much more sense than Seven of Nine to appear.

 - this is super cute; http://www.kimonostownhouse.com/

 - I fucking hate the '07 layout of Microsoft Word, but I [well, my OSAP grant] paid for it and it would be stupid to pay for a downgrade just because I'm a stubborn jackass when it comes to change. I just wish I could do the same thing with it as I did for running Windows Vista (I've got it set to look like Windows '98).

 - I really like using DreamWidth as my alpha journal for many reasons, but the major ones are that the posting interface just feels cleaner and the staff is so damn helpful and friendly. Also, because I don't have to fight with logging in and DW allows me to cross-post. That being said, I guess LJ has spoiled me because I find it incredibly inconvenient not to be able to tag my entries with a tick-box list and it drives me up the wall when I want to have more than one space at a time, because you just can't do it in the Rich Text format (they are removed in the post), and if you put the   into the code box then switch to Rich Text for any reason, they are removed then as well. Little things, but they get to me.

 + another thing I had intended to add to my list of upcoming posts; a work-in-progress meme. It is actually one of the few things I could have done in the last few weeks, because it would require little thought, except that there are at least 75+ files in my "in progress" folder and have no idea how to compile the list without having to copy/paste or re-type all the file names out.
fai_dust: Battlestar 2003 (comic): issue #00 (battlestar 2003: .adama)
I've had this quote in my head on and off for about a week. Until I looked it up, I could have sworn it was Cain that said it, but whatever. Not that I'm complaining either about having it in my head or about being wrong. It's the most normal thing my brain has produced in too long.
"Let's all sit down and talk about how we feel about martial law."
     ~ Ellen Tigh, (Battlestar Galactica, 2003; 2x04)

the full line (& semi-context) of the quote )

Don't say it; I refuse to admit my brain is connecting this to anything in relivent news.
Also, because I'm actually a little linear today, I am not obsessing on people I know or know of who pull this BS. Linear is nice.
fai_dust: BtVS: 1x12 - Prophecy Girl (.sick)
Yesterday's problem has sorted itself out, pretty much. I can understand people again, but it does take some effort. Luckily (in regards to communicating with insensitive jackasses), I usually respond (and generally speak) so fast that my delay just makes me seem close to average and just a little slow.


CMHC is run by doctors who gave themselves their MD )


I'm going to see my GP today. He listens to me and tries to help.

so... yeah

Feb. 14th, 2011 09:46 am
fai_dust: BtVS: 1x12 - Prophecy Girl (.sick)
 
Friday, I was actually blind for a large part of the day due to weird images right in my direct line of sight and thick, black, oily outlines that took up everything but my peripheral vision. Not fun. I did, however, get most of my fanfic that was on my LJ moved to the DW comm. Yay.
 
Still feel like shit, though, and I'm still seeing things. I do have an appointment with CMHC (or whatever the hell they're calling it now), so maybe something can be done about it sooner then my other medical issues.
 
Spent the weekend running errends, which is not fun at any time, but even worse when there's things going on that aren't real but seem like it.
 
Also, I feel all foggy-brained today. Yuck.
fai_dust: battlestar 2003: 1x04 - Act Of Contrition (.wish me luck)

Just back from dinner/drining at a friends (+TV; Eureka 1x12 & Supernatural 1x03 [assuming the pilot counts as one ep]) so I am a little tipsy.
    - also, home safe, Liz. Sorry I couldn't call; I can't find the bloody phone, but I did send you an email, so don't worry.
 
Life Update: Lately, by the end of class and on weekends, I've been utterly exausted and while that's no excuese, I am sorry for flaking. If anyone needs to contact me, I've created a temp. email address so I can avoid the terror that is my inbox; eccentricavoidance@onlytoexcess.org
 
I am enjoying school for the most part, but it's taking a lot out of me. I will make all the posts I have noted in my notebook eventually (if I had any sort of cell phone, I could concider upgrading to a smart phone (?) just so I could use the LJ app like [personal profile] colls).
 
PS; Dragon; Naturally Speaking is a pain in the ass. I've tried using it multipul times to get the very late holiday fics types and it gets, like, one of every five or six words correct. Phhhhhhhh
 
edit: speaking of drinking, refer to here (LJ) or here (DW)  ^_^
fai_dust: battlestar 2003: 1x06 - Litmus (.pessimistic)

Holy... Well, that flu thing I mentioned? Has moved into my chest and become something else. But since I finally couldn't justify it anymore, I decided to tackle my inbox. Big mistake; over 3000 unread emails. Now, granted, at least half are bound to be LJ alerts about comms I "track", but still, it's overwealming. I'm sorry if you're waiting on me. I'll do the best I can.

explination for the RENT post: when I get sick for a streach of time, I get pathetic and that song either gets me off my ass or really cranky. Or at least, it always has until two days ago. It didn't seem to do much then, but I chalk that up to what has probably become a lung infection.

health&home bitching )
fai_dust: Questionable Content #1696 (.sick: sleepless)

I'm all bleghy now. My fault, when I don't sleep, my mood is impressionable and I just watched the Angel episode "A Hole in the World".
Also, still don't want to go out tonight, but I'm going to because Dee's, uh, going to NY tomorrow so I'll be a trooper. And Liz at least doubly so, because she's going for me.
 
Umm... made a burried at the bottom post collecting the random quotes I've used, mostly for my own amusement but you can see it here; http://fai-dust.dreamwidth.org/20016.html  and  http://fai-dust.livejournal.com/70662.html 

Ooh! And over the last little while, I've added new icons to my DW account. All are here, but I'm mainly mentioning it because of the Hawaii 5-0 ones (the first two below), I really like stairing at the one of Heightmeyer (center) (I really wish she had been in more episodes of SGA) and the ones of Ro & Ro/Yar from the Star Trek TNG comic "The Last Generation" (last two)
    
 
And I still can't remember what I had origonally planned to do when I sat down almost 4 hours ago. It's really starting to bug me.
 
Edit: Oh, and I created a handful of new tags for my journal(s) with silly names, including one Eureka reference. Now the fun part; going back through all my old entries and adding them. ...why do I do this to myself?
fai_dust: marvel comics: XFactorIII - issue #014 (.unimpressed)

warning: this was written on 4h of sleep in 48h and may be unorganized, incoherent or totally bug-nuts. Cool?
um... something or everything about what I did since I woke up at fuckAM until now )
At least a month ago, back while I was first having LJ exasperation, I bought a pre-paid MasterCard to buy a paid account on DreamWidth. Sounds simple, doesn't it? It's never that easy.
**1** Problems with DW's server accepting cards without more then a name.
    - I tried on two computers other then my own as well, then contacted MC to see if it was on my end some other way; they said it wasn't
So I tried to use it through PayPal...
**2** ...Which also would't take it
    - something to do with their confermation process involving taking two tiny amounts, letting it process without being rejected, then refunding the money; the problem with that is the card doesn't allow for reloading, because they make that much more money that way (and serously, how greedy can they get? They already charge $30 for a $25 card!)
so I ended up having to transfer money from my bank account to PayPal then pay DW (who were great about it, by the way), which I'm still not really comfortable with, but by that point I was obligated to. This is because after requesting help with the first problem, the awesome staff (who replied the same day!) not only did everything they could to try to figure it out, but the woman asisting me actually gave me a free week and when after that time it still hadn't been sorted, she gave me the points/tokens in advance and let me pay her back once the transfer from my bank finally cleared!

Anyways, I still have the damn pre-paid card with $22.55 CAD on it...
**3** There was some charge that was either the first test-charge from PayPal or MC's "you didn't use this up within the first 10 seconds? Sucker!" charge which I gather is monthly
...so I tried to renew my paid account on LJ last week, but it wouldn't take.
**4** When I tried to check out, it said something about trying to access an account I don't have the right to access. I wouldn't be suprised if this one is the fault of my laptop.

UGH!

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fai_dust: marvel comics: NewWarriorsIV - issue #05 (.stay positive)

Okay, technically I've been home since the thirtith, but I had a terrible flight home (including the first flight being delayed so that the connecting flight was missed [leading to an extra 5-6h, making the entire thing 16+h] and a freaky hallucination of creepy, evil bugs attacking me [I wasn't so far gone that I didn't realiz that it was a hallucination, thank God. I just locked my jaw and freaked out internally] and from, like, the next morning until now, I felt like I had the flu.

-- bzzz! I am feeling very giggle!spaz-y right now with post-sickness endorphins. It is a good feeling!--
 
blah,blah,blah... Holiday Cards + M*A*S*H quote )
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fai_dust: Stargate SG-1: 10x03 - The Pegasus Project (.ooh)

...3h before flying back home to Canada with a stop over in Denver

     Ideal Jobs (in no real order)
Data entry
Being the hyper jumping-up-and-down chick on bad review shows
Giving actual reviews/critiques on things
Providing the voice for a computer in a sci-fi program
Finding a way to turn my insane life encounters into a media form
Getting paid to write backstories for minor characters in canon
  + Being a low-ranking lab tech in the food safety field, which feels just as likely as the rest sometimes.
fai_dust: BtVS: 1x12 - Prophecy Girl (.sick)
Great. I was just starting to feel better on Monday & Tuesday, then I get what felt like the damn flu yesterday. I'm feeling a bit better now, but I am dreading this evening/tomorrow morning. I DO NOT WANT TO FLY TO TEXAS AT STUPID-AM TO SPEND A WEEK WITH A MAN WHO'S GREATEST IDEA OF "BONDING" WITH HIS CHILDREN IS TO MOCK & RIDICULE THE OTHER TWO!

...and now that I have that out of my system, I feel a little better. I am still working on catching up on all my coraspondence, though, so if you emailed me, I wil try to get back to you soon. Also, writing those long-overdue posts I mentioned weeks ago.
fai_dust: Questionable Content #1297 (qc: 1297 - raven)
 
..aaaaaaaand because I'm feeling particularily good&silly, anybody on LY and/or DW have any questions they wanna ask me me while I'm not-quite-there-yet-but-plan-to-be-very drunk?
 (I'd say anything replied to within two to three hours after this post)
 
PS/edit: No offence will be taken; I do not do subtext ever but in this case, the answers you get may be a little sillier.
fai_dust: Questionable Content #1696 (.sick: sleepless)

Alive and (semi) functional. I'm buzzing at a friend's house (love you, [personal profile] conser) watching my Eureka S1 DVDs & hoping to be able to work on December holiday gifts tomorrow. Because while it's doubtful I'll get them done in time, I'd really like to.
 
Speaking of updates, I am no longer confined to my bed (in cases the at a friends' wasn't obvious) as I have been in the past week.
 
YAY BOOZE!
fai_dust: BtVS: 1x12 - Prophecy Girl (.sick)
See the subject? (i_want_2, you can bite me. ^_^) Yeah. Utterly physically exausted. Been feeling like crap for almost two weeks, Tuesday was beyond bad and I can barely move without feeling like I may collaps. Ooh, and I have an exam in less then two hours.
 
But still. Not dead.
fai_dust: marvel comics: NewWarriorsIV - issue #05 (.stay positive)

...which seems about par for the course on LJ. I was cleaning out my various bags (purse, laptop case, girly backpack meant for small children & Hello Kitty tin lunchbox I use as a smaller purse) and I realized just how many things I jot down on Post-Its and the backs of scrap paper to write about (on LJ or just my real journal) that have actual substance but by the time I'm at my computer, they're either forgotten or displaces by unimportant rambling.
 
(1) - Wow. I never what level of controversy Ctrl+Alt+Del had surrounding it. It's... shocking, to say the least.
(2) - I have been meaning to say this for a few weeks now, but I forget almost right after my "lesson" (which I suspect is subconsciously intentional); I can no longer innocentally enjoy Greg Land's art without either seeing bad art, bad "things", or getting mild vertigo from all the weird angles in one frame. No fair!
(3) - [personal profile] i_want_2 , remember when you said the "writers' block" that goes beyong writing and covers all fandom-related things is called "fandom burnout"? You don't happen to know a cure, do you?
(4) - LJ finally got back to me on the support question I posted over a month ago about being unable to log in; they quoted the FAQ at me. Really? It took them over a month to direct me there? I wonder if LJ's hiring from the Toaster School of Tech Support as well...
(5) - Yesterday, my blood pressure shot right down, so I couldn't get out of bed until noon and was pretty useless all day. Today, my left arm is seizuring so badly I have to sit on it. Blegh. Could be worse; it could be my right arm. I'll take what I can get.
 
+ remember all those subjects I mentioned on Friday? I'll get to them (even if you don't care). I know this because three of them are half-typed.

hjfhj,m/,bj

Dec. 5th, 2010 02:45 pm
fai_dust: Battlestar 2003: miniseries (.devil's advocate)
...Yeah. Usually, I'm the first one to bitch when people use pounding on their keyboards to express something, but you try typing with mittens on. Then we'll talk.
 
I'm outside with the dogs to get them out of the way of my mother, who is testing tree lights. Preblem; it's damn cold out here and, apparentally, mouse pads aren't meant to be used with mittens on. I can't even tap to click. *rasberry*

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