random thought: going 'out'*

[fai_dust]

*this is not a gay pun
 
To me "going out with friends" is quite often more comfortable when I am actually just over at a friend's house cooking dinner there and watching TV**. I am forever flip-floping between wondering if this is really strange and feeling guilty because then the friend whom I am visiting is not actually getting out. That guilt is only worsened by the fact that I can never have them over at my place because my mom freaks out if I have someone over because the house is a "sty" (you know, it looks like people actually live in it), and it pisses me off because I am the only one of her three kids this applies to, because I would have them upstairs where as my brother and sister hand out in the basement (as in the cesspit; there is actually food going moldy on the coffee table down there.)  
 
But at the same time, I know when I eventually get a place of my own, I will probably be the kind of shut-in who never wants to always have a friend over rather then actually having to leave my house. Is this better or worse?
 
**DON'T READ ANYTHING INTO THIS, LIZ. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING OUT TO DINNER WITH YOU TONIGHT