philosophy

God fucking damnit! I am deeply ashamed of my Country.

I looks like I used up all my LJ points on re-doing the layout, because I can't sign in even to comment anymore. Oh well.
 
On the upside, I FINNALY GOT TO SLEEP AGAIN! YAY! Also, got around to posting 3 SG fics (all just barely-slash. I like skirting the edge, I guess.) Now if only I could actually post them on LJ.

when I can relate to anything from Yelling Bird, it isn't a good sign.

 
Also, stoned on Ativan and semi-functional on very strong tea.

...maybe I'm looking for a reason to be upset? I don't know. I was trying to distract myself from the fact that LJ wasn't loading (and therefor couldn't make my daily_scifi entry), so I rewatched the damn thing twice on VHS, then tracked it down on the internet so I could make a bunck of icons for a scene I loath. Don't mind me. But then again, Elisabeth Röhm, so, pretty!

Can you tell I haven't slept right in days?



Also, if anyone wants 300+ caps of her in her final scene on Law & Order, let me know. Maybe then I can justify it in a better light?

So, apparentally, being 23 is looking to be a good age. Even though I'm at the second worst point in my life health-wise, it feels like the universe is looking to help make up for it.

( so many awesome things are happening right now )

PS; please help me with this if you haven't already!

Somehow, my Windows Defender program has been corrupted by a virus. I am using my mom's laptop to type this in the (unlikely) hope that someone is going to read this in the next hour or so and know what to do. I could try to restore my computer to an eariler date, but I'd loose all my files I've edited since, and knowing me, I'll probably end up fucking it up worse. ANYONE KNOW???

I'm also upset because until half an hour ago, I was writing a post saying how awesome things have been going. Goddamnit!

Colbert: Mainly, I want to see it to get answers about the shocking regime collapse on everybody's mind; Canada's coalition minority government, lead by Prime Minister Stephen Harper, fell today. The Canadian government has fallen! As we speak, [I know a chilling story,] as we speak, marauding bands of rebel Inuit are storming parliament on beaver-back while embattled prime minister Stephen Harper orders mounties to dump cauldrons of mapel syrup on them!
    - [March 28, 2011]

Good to know this is happening in my country.

Also, I may have a way to beat the hazy brain. Free-based crack* is the shit!

*I am in no way promoting free-based crack, or any other drug not perscribed by a licensed physician. In actuality, they have put me back on the brand-name ADD medication methylphenidate hydrochloride Concerta which has much different effects then the generic drug, as well as upping my dose to off-set the stupid-brain of my antipsychotics.

Over the last few weeks, I've spent a lot of time watching various Law & Order episodes; season 20 (recorded myself when they were airing new), season 16/17 at 5pm on Bravo, and old tapes of anything from S1 to (I think) S15, which I got from my grade 11 English teacher. So excuse the L&O (TOS) spam, k?
...and can I just say how cool it is to watch the older episodes without having any of it cut for more add time? There are scenes I'm getting to see that I'm pretty sure have been hacked because older shows had more show to them. Also, I don't mind watching the adds that are there because even they are kind of entertaining, seeing the differences between the styles now and 15-20 years ago. Hell, even five years ago.
NOTE; some episode spoilers

( many various thoughts and points in no order other than that which I watched in )

***** these were written at various times over the last few weeks when I thought them but was too fried to post. I apologise if there are any typos; each and every one was all but unreadable when I actually typed them, but I did run it through spell-check on MS Word, so I hope I got the majority of the mess. *****
sad fact just editing and cleaning this up took... too long. I opened the page at "22:43" and finished at "23:55". Jeeze.

 - I really dislike wiki sites. It took me this side of forever to not hate them immediately because of the potential unreliability of them (I don't care what anyone says about how a wrong answer can be corrected as quickly as under a minute; I know of four incidents involving people I know personally and in 'real life' [as opposed to on-line] where it was the wrong information that kept getting 'corrected'), ( bitching because I can't figure out the damn rules + gushing over ComicVine )

 - Sometimes, words are awesome but right now, I despise my vocabulary. Unless I know someone really well**, I can come off as either harsh, pissed off or attacking when I don't mean too. Apparently, saying that 'x' template email was used to justify the deletion of a submission is being rude, but that's the most descriptive word I can come up with. "Explain" doesn't fit because the email didn't explain anything.
  **or they happen to have an X-Files reference as their username not be angered because they say the same things with the intent of being a (funny) pain in the ass being harsh.

 - You know how sometimes when you watch a show that you haven't seen in a long time and when you watch it again, you wonder how you didn't see how truly **awful** it is? Well, I caught myself thinking the reverse when I was watching Star Trek; Voyager a while back. I always remember it as being poorly acted in the beginning, not all that good with continuity, having created Seven for gratuities sexuality and just really hokey. I attribute watching it to it being _Star Trek_. But when I actually watch it, it's not nearly as bad as I always think of it.

 - ( http://questionablecontent.net/view.php?comic=91) I cannot comprehend a situation where paying for alcohol is equivalent to covering pizza except maybe in the case of a children's BD party and the parents of birthday child drinking after.

 - spent a full day dicking around on the Blue Bloods Wikia site. A very long no-point detail list of what specifically I did and justifications for everything can be found here; http://bluebloodstv.wikia.com/wiki/User_blog:Pixie_child/self-absorbed_mind_drop

 - I have found a new way to be horrified and very amused at the same time; http://wonkette.com/. ( shifting blame + recs found at 2AM )

 - Wow, I'm getting a little political lately. I know it is just through quoting one of the awesome-ness of one of the coolest "Old Guys" on TV, but still. They're directly currently politically-related, so it feels pretty damn close. And while I'm pretty sure no one on my f-list** is a [what's the US equivalent of Canada's Conservative party? I can't keep the two names separate because unlike up here in the land of "Universal" health care, neither words are (as far as I know) words in the English language], but just in case, I apologise. I don't want to offend anyone. Well, not unless you would vote the illiterate media whore, ah, "companion". Then I am not going to say anything in your regard, because I'm a firm believer in the rights of everyone, but you really challenge that.
  **reading this and not a member of my f-list? Seriously? Well, after questioning your sanity (^_^), I invite you to contact me either through commenting, PM-ing via LJ or DW, or emailing me! If I haven't scared you off yet, I'm almost guaranteed to be more than willing to babble incoherently with you.

 - suddenly overwhelmed by 14-year-old guilt from back when I spent two weeks with my aunt and uncle. ( an instance where I was reminded how everything is a reflection on my father )

 - I'm easily amused. Apparently, Jeri Ryan's birth last name is Zimmerman. cue Star Trek-related giggles
    - also just learned that she turned down a cameo offer to be in (Star Trek) Nemesis, and only asked Kate Mulgrew after. I have nothing against Jeri Ryan, but seriously? Janeway made much more sense than Seven of Nine to appear.

 - this is super cute; http://www.kimonostownhouse.com/

 - I fucking hate the '07 layout of Microsoft Word, but I [well, my OSAP grant] paid for it and it would be stupid to pay for a downgrade just because I'm a stubborn jackass when it comes to change. I just wish I could do the same thing with it as I did for running Windows Vista (I've got it set to look like Windows '98).

 - I really like using DreamWidth as my alpha journal for many reasons, but the major ones are that the posting interface just feels cleaner and the staff is so damn helpful and friendly. Also, because I don't have to fight with logging in and DW allows me to cross-post. That being said, I guess LJ has spoiled me because I find it incredibly inconvenient not to be able to tag my entries with a tick-box list and it drives me up the wall when I want to have more than one space at a time, because you just can't do it in the Rich Text format (they are removed in the post), and if you put the   into the code box then switch to Rich Text for any reason, they are removed then as well. Little things, but they get to me.

 + another thing I had intended to add to my list of upcoming posts; a work-in-progress meme. It is actually one of the few things I could have done in the last few weeks, because it would require little thought, except that there are at least 75+ files in my "in progress" folder and have no idea how to compile the list without having to copy/paste or re-type all the file names out.

...yeah. I'm way to proud of this. But I finally managed to acomplish something.
 

Well, listen, here's what we're gonna do; We're gonna figure out who did this, and we're gonna string him up by his family jewels. It's not gonna bring her back, but it's gonna make you feel better.
(Jackie Curatola - Blue Bloods: Little Fish [1x11])