philosophy

 
"...hi lady. What's my number?"
 
This is the message I sent to my sister, about tow minutes after asking her if she minded if I sent her a text. (I needed her to tell me my cell number. I couldn't find it anywhere.) It is also the reason for her to be pissed at me today. Apparentally, it's creepy, because it sounds like I'm hitting on her. This is the girl who talks about "banging" specific old men (RDA, Jon Stewart, Sam Waterston and Richard Belzer usually), "diddling little Asian children", "jizzing" in her pants if she ever visits Japan and describes having her period in the most graphic ways possible. And these are just the first examples that come to mind.

Yesterday's problem has sorted itself out, pretty much. I can understand people again, but it does take some effort. Luckily (in regards to communicating with insensitive jackasses), I usually respond (and generally speak) so fast that my delay just makes me seem close to average and just a little slow.


( CMHC is run by doctors who gave themselves their MD )


I'm going to see my GP today. He listens to me and tries to help.

 
Friday, I was actually blind for a large part of the day due to weird images right in my direct line of sight and thick, black, oily outlines that took up everything but my peripheral vision. Not fun. I did, however, get most of my fanfic that was on my LJ moved to the DW comm. Yay.
 
Still feel like shit, though, and I'm still seeing things. I do have an appointment with CMHC (or whatever the hell they're calling it now), so maybe something can be done about it sooner then my other medical issues.
 
Spent the weekend running errends, which is not fun at any time, but even worse when there's things going on that aren't real but seem like it.
 
Also, I feel all foggy-brained today. Yuck.

(still at home, still seeing things, going a little extra crazy because I am at home)

1. "The first thing the Warren Commission found is that it is easier to reach a predetermined decision if you overlook pesky distractions. These include unreliable witnesses who might testify to things that don't fit in with your theory, physical evidence that hasn't been planted medical evidence that hasn't been altered, Mafia co-conspirators who haven't been rubbed out yet, et cetera." [UFOs, JFK, and Elvis by Richard Belzer (pg.33)]
It is the shit. Awesome, funny, cynical and in no way meant to be taken compleatly serously. More info here.
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2. While looking for a quote from a children's book (which I still haven't found), found this site and ended up making a profile. Yay books!
- I haven't decided if I'm going to add series, because it would take a while to find 8-16 books per series, or TV-related books (BtVS, Star Trek, ect.)
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3. A while ago, my grandmother started to read "cowboy books", most of which she buys at the drugstore. A few months ago, I realized that was code for "porn, set in the wild west".
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4. From grade 11 'university-level' chemistry: "Dylan and Harper, ionic, MX (polar)". Somehow, this is a way to remember chemical bond types. It was expanded to include stuff for my college Organic Chemistry class, which may be rembled about later, when I find the post-it and feel like doing so at the same time I remember I wanted to.
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5. "Calm down?! I am wearing sunglasses at night! You know who does that? No-talent douchebags." I don't follow Supernatural, it just got too dark and continuity-based for a show that didn't start out as either. But I remember my sister watching it ages ago when I was in the room and every time I remember this line, it sends me into giggles. Last year, I told a classmate about it (after class) and a guy (an adult in the class) overheard me and yelled "Are you dissin' H?", really offended. Now, I have my own obsessions, but really, I never actually said who Dean (and by extention, I) was talking about, so that's really rather sad.
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6. ...uh, actually this one is quazi-related to #5, at least in my own brain... "...Beyond the series, Bono is especially notable for being an Irish guy on a sci-fi TV show not played by Colm Meaney." Because it's very true and while Colm Meaney is awesome, so is Mark Sheppard. (The quote is from a page that used to be on Wiki Frakr, but, along with most of their best pages, broke, and had to be retrived from the web.archive site here.
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7. At least once a week, when I get serious-brain, I think about making a "happy-thoughts" comm (yes, I just made that up) where a weekly challange is something like "post an image of a cute animal" or "a quote related to (x)", usually non-fandom specific and no upsetting shit allowed. Then I think, what would be the point? I mean, I could probably wrangle a few friends into co-mod-ing it with me, but would anyone other then me actually get anything out of it?
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8. I fould my cell phone, which I lost at least six months ago, a few days ago! I knew it was somewhere in my room, but I couldn't find the damn thing until I was looking for the power coard to my extrenal hard drive. Which I still have to find, but whatever.
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9. I miss The Bridge. I know there are a bunch of cop shows out there and most have a very similar concept, but this was one of the few that didn't. Also, it gave a different perspective to the police force. Granted, it wasn't always a positive one, but that's how life is. I mean, I respect and am greatful for the work the police do, but there are always going to be people who mess up, are stupid, and even corrupt, no matter what job they do. And the acting was really good, too.
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10. "This is the New York that I love-- the one you never see on a postcard." / "Now, there's an untapped market; tranny hooker postcards." Is 'tranny' ('trannie'?) an offensive term? I've heard people say it is (well, read people say so, mostly on S-D), but usually, when I hear the actual term used, it's mostly just as a lazy way of saying transsexual.
(...and by the way, Blue Bloods is awesome. Watch it!)
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11. Why is it that LJ & DW mood images have 'drunk' as an unhappy face but 'crazy' as a good one?
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I'm having hallucinations, this time worse then anything I can remember that wasn't caused by a week of no sleep. So I couldn't go to school today. Also, I missed Thursday because I couldn't walk. This is not good.

Lots of weird shit going on, none of it staying in my head long enough to post. And my minset has been just this side of too serious to be fully happy. Yuck.

So to go with my mindset (and because I've run out of funny/light hearted drama with silly banter, not to mention attempting to shake a rather peculiar image from my crazy-brain), I present you quotes from Law and Order 6x23, because even though the whole episode is depressing on every level, it's got that whole moral-delema from both perspectives that caused so much contraversy and a lot of character bulding. ( blah,blah[mini rant/review of ep],blah,blah )
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( You can quit the profession, Claire. You just can't quit the human race. )
 
And now for two other TV related bitching points;
- Big Bang Theory; did anyone else get the impression that whole creepy Raj fantasizing about the squeeky girl was an excuese to get away with the dance sequance?
- Mr. Sunshine; I liked the pilot, although it felt like Matthew Perry took all my favorite aspects of his character in Studio 60 and used them in this. Not that I'm complaining, mind you. It was cute. And if it manages to stay the way it was set up, it won't make it past a full season. Suck is the way of comedy with quazi non-PC humor.

Just back from dinner/drining at a friends (+TV; Eureka 1x12 & Supernatural 1x03 [assuming the pilot counts as one ep]) so I am a little tipsy.
    - also, home safe, Liz. Sorry I couldn't call; I can't find the bloody phone, but I did send you an email, so don't worry.
 
Life Update: Lately, by the end of class and on weekends, I've been utterly exausted and while that's no excuese, I am sorry for flaking. If anyone needs to contact me, I've created a temp. email address so I can avoid the terror that is my inbox; eccentricavoidance@onlytoexcess.org
 
I am enjoying school for the most part, but it's taking a lot out of me. I will make all the posts I have noted in my notebook eventually (if I had any sort of cell phone, I could concider upgrading to a smart phone (?) just so I could use the LJ app like colls).
 
PS; Dragon; Naturally Speaking is a pain in the ass. I've tried using it multipul times to get the very late holiday fics types and it gets, like, one of every five or six words correct. Phhhhhhhh. 
 
edit: speaking of drinking, refer to here (LJ) or here (DW)  ^_^

warning: this was written on 4h of sleep in 48h and may be unorganized, incoherent or totally bug-nuts. Cool?
( um... something or everything about what I did since I woke up at fuckAM until now )
At least a month ago, back while I was first having LJ exasperation, I bought a pre-paid MasterCard to buy a paid account on DreamWidth. Sounds simple, doesn't it? It's never that easy.
**1** Problems with DW's server accepting cards without more then a name.
    - I tried on two computers other then my own as well, then contacted MC to see if it was on my end some other way; they said it wasn't
So I tried to use it through PayPal...
**2** ...Which also would't take it
    - something to do with their confermation process involving taking two tiny amounts, letting it process without being rejected, then refunding the money; the problem with that is the card doesn't allow for reloading, because they make that much more money that way (and serously, how greedy can they get? They already charge $30 for a $25 card!)
so I ended up having to transfer money from my bank account to PayPal then pay DW (who were great about it, by the way), which I'm still not really comfortable with, but by that point I was obligated to. This is because after requesting help with the first problem, the awesome staff (who replied the same day!) not only did everything they could to try to figure it out, but the woman asisting me actually gave me a free week and when after that time it still hadn't been sorted, she gave me the points/tokens in advance and let me pay her back once the transfer from my bank finally cleared!

Anyways, I still have the damn pre-paid card with $22.55 CAD on it...
**3** There was some charge that was either the first test-charge from PayPal or MC's "you didn't use this up within the first 10 seconds? Sucker!" charge which I gather is monthly
...so I tried to renew my paid account on LJ last week, but it wouldn't take.
**4** When I tried to check out, it said something about trying to access an account I don't have the right to access. I wouldn't be suprised if this one is the fault of my laptop.

UGH!

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...3h before flying back home to Canada with a stop over in Denver

     Ideal Jobs (in no real order)
Data entry
Being the hyper jumping-up-and-down chick on bad review shows
Giving actual reviews/critiques on things
Providing the voice for a computer in a sci-fi program
Finding a way to turn my insane life encounters into a media form
Getting paid to write backstories for minor characters in canon
  + Being a low-ranking lab tech in the food safety field, which feels just as likely as the rest sometimes.

I am working on getting everyone's gifts done ASAP; it won't be before Christmas, but hopefully mostly before New Years. Sorry guys.

Done;
dorksidefiker ./.fullmetal_cute: http://fangirlpixie.dreamwidth.org/1811.html